A PEARL IN THE SHELL

When I was Just NINE, My Eyes Were Flooded
To Accept My Pet Dog With No Movement

I Hide Myself  Under the Cot, To Escape the Death
After Watching a Body in a Silent and Painful Sendoff from Heavy Hearts                                        

It's  Hurting in My Heart When I Saw My Uncle
Crying for a Child in His Blocked Cuteness

My Childhood Thoughts.....About..
How My Dad.. Crossed His Tough Time 

By Burying His Image of a NINE Month Old Boy Baby,
A Smooth Body To the Rough Soil.

My Mom.. How Could She..Herself Got Relieved From a Lifetime Pain.. ?
I Know.. She Got Addicted to the Two Pain-Killers..

Its We.. Me and My Elder  Brother

Age-Old Dignity...
The Address of My Family-name My Grand-Paa..
Left His Concern On Me.. In the Memories.. And Quit Quietly..
His Story-telling of  History, Dictation on Black-stoned Flooring
Upward-downward Rendering of Tables .. His Last Tears of Detachment !                                                                                                                          

 A Godly Lady Those Days,
Mom of My Eight Moms And My Beloved Uncle
Left The Grief To The Village And Become A Memorial in the Field
A Forced Darkness By Her Absence ....... I Cried.. As Usual  !

Many tears from my first cry on my day ONE,
Every Time.. I Cry.. My Heart Might Be Taking a Bath !
Clearing The Old Perfumes But Not The Fragrance !
Washing out The Pains And Preparing Me To The Freshness !                                                                                                         

A Deep Fear to Face such Pains Again , But Tears Pat Me ..
By Saving My Skin Sensible And Keep My Heart Wet, Saying..
A life Without Tears Is Impossible !          

A Tear-less.. Is  a Rock ,  Insensibility Is Death !
                                     
It's the Tears Introduced Me to This World,

I Need to Carry them Of course ,         

But Certainly There z a Point to Master Them..!                                                                                                                                                                                                                   

 I Leave the Court of Over Kindness,Where All My Tears are Defended
And Promote the Value of Each Drop of The Eye
I Post My Deserved Tears.. For Humanity..
Burry  The Undeserved ..to Raise My Voice With Courage.. !                                                                                                         

At last....

I Leave This world With a Joy of My Next Journey..

To Explore a New World  And My Departure ..

As a Spirit of Smile To My Beloved-ones  !



-- PADMAKALA ,
 15 December,2019.