Sunday, December 15, 2019

A PEARL IN THE SHELL





When I was Just NINE, My Eyes Were Flooded
To Accept My Pet Dog With No Movement

I Hide Myself  Under the Cot, To Escape the Death
After Watching a Body in a Silent and Painful Sendoff from Heavy Hearts                                        

It's  Hurting in My Heart When I Saw My Uncle
Crying for a Child in His Blocked Cuteness

My Childhood Thoughts.....About..
How My Dad.. Crossed His Tough Time 
By Burying His Image of a NINE Month Old Boy Baby,
A Smooth Body To the Rough Soil.
My Mom.. How Could She..Herself Got Relieved From a Lifetime Pain.. ?
I Know.. She Got Addicted to the Two Pain-Killers..
Its We.. Me and My Elder  Brother

Age-Old Dignity...
The Address of My Family-name My Grand-Paa..
Left His Concern On Me.. In the Memories.. And Quit Quietly..
His Story-telling of  History, Dictation on Black-stoned Flooring
Upward-downward Rendering of Tables .. His Last Tears of Detachment !                                                                                                                          
 A Godly Lady Those Days,
Mom of My Eight Moms And My Beloved Uncle
Left The Grief To The Village And Become A Memorial in the Field
A Forced Darkness By Her Absence ....... I Cried.. As Usual  !

Many tears from my first cry on my day ONE,
Every Time.. I Cry.. My Heart Might Be Taking a Bath !
Clearing The Old Perfumes But Not The Fragrance !
Washing out The Pains And Preparing Me To The Freshness !                                                                                                         
A Deep Fear to Face such Pains Again , But Tears Pat Me ..
By Saving My Skin Sensible And Keep My Heart Wet, Saying..
A life Without Tears Is Impossible !          
A Tear-less.. Is  a Rock ,  Insensibility Is Death !
                                     
It's the Tears Introduced Me to This World,
I Need to Carry them Of course ,         
But Certainly There z a Point to Master Them..!                                                                                                                                                                                                                   
 I Leave the Court of Over Kindness,Where All My Tears are Defended
And Promote the Value of Each Drop of The Eye
I Post My Deserved Tears.. For Humanity..
Burry  The Undeserved ..to Raise My Voice With Courage.. !                                                                                                         
At last....
I Leave This world With a Joy of My Next Journey..
To Explore a New World  And My Departure ..
As a Spirit of Smile To My Beloved-ones  !



-- PADMAKALA ,
 15 December,2019.
                                                                                                                 
                                        

  

Saturday, March 9, 2019

A SILENT WAR..
























A real ' Me' in 'me'
Judging Me and my world...


What I learn , what I see
Nothing is matching in reality !
My inner 'Me' consoles 
in my worry about it !

I'm Sad to see the careless natures
crazy to conquer the fate of others 
My wish, sharing peace and pleasures
But , the noise of such hatred hinders !

Empty hands ,ending the aimless walks 
One day, Not only for me , but to all those
Ruling tones, blaming tongues, Ego at the peaks
No scope to escape , We are the foolish folks !

Lot to say to this world , but no voice to you
Lot to share, none is free to sit at your graveyard
Flowers on it are dried by your anger and curses
All ideals and ideas you missed..But no chance to revisit !




                                                            - Padmakala
                                                                 10 March,'19